Online retreat - the conclusion

What can I say other than highly recommended. Its got me into habits (not literally) and to me now, mass and everything, the structured prayer and the regular reading of scripture, its just normal. It doesn't seem new. But as I keep saying I was a Christian anyway. This isn't about discovering God, its about entering the Catholic and Ignatian way and applying their terms of worship. It works. The online retreat works. One day I will do one in person but I am so happy with how this has gone and as I say, it just feels right. It's good to take time for yourself and get as much silence as you can. Sociable as one is, at heart I'm a loner and happy alone. If you can get that, you'll find God will soon be beside you in all you do. He has been with me since a very very young age. Admittedly it took me a while to work out just who it was watching and looking over me but it was certainly God in my difficult times as a child. I knew I wasn't alone. I use prayer as a way to say thank you, thank you for this beautiful world which I enjoy so much and for the wonderful people in it whom I continue to encounter. This morning the priest said after I asked him 'When are you going to give me some instruction?' he said he will and that there are around four others wanting to join my local church. I've heard it takes around a year. I'll keep you updated.. Currently, I'm going through the worst period of my life and if you're reading this I'd just like to say thank you and I hope this helps you somehow. It's what's worked for me and very easily and quickly which is why I thought I'd write about it because I haven't got here on my own, people have helped me and so this is the least I can do.