What the Hell is Heaven?

This has been briefly and very well touched on in the RCIA group i.e. 'Church school'. I have a way of explaining it, almost like we become a version of the Holy Spirit, apparently we will have a glorious body but of course, there will be no time. This is the thing that can be difficult to grasp. There is no time. 

Was there ever?

I know in the Bible, when it talked of hurling Satan out of Heaven and all his angels down with him, they do bad things knowing they don't have much time. 

Not been writing much, lots of work, not all of it good, still constantly reevaluating my life, not getting to daily mass. Will have more time now. 

Its a curious thing that the harder life gets, the closer one is to God. Even those that profess to be of no faith have no problem calling to the heavens in a time of need. I think that's a good thing. 

I'm thinking a lot about ministry work. I don't think I can because I'm a girl. Also, the best way to bring people near to God is just to be good. I know this. 

Sometimes I think people would be far more easily convinced about the presence of bad spirits and thoughts and perhaps one could raise awareness that way. 

Not that its necessary for me to run around 'converting' people. I have a home here in this church. They have such a fantastic social scene - not that I came for that, but its a way of sharing faith. 

I long to talk more about God, Jesus, the past. 

We talked tonight about Heaven at church school, how the saints are already there. I feel we are in the last days. I really do. Just look around. This world, it gets worse and worse. 

I worry for my daughter. I love to pray. One can only hope she one day finds a friend in Jesus. That said, it takes a rough time to open ones eyes to such things. 

God is with me so much in my life. The church is a tiny part but all through my life I've felt he's been there looking after me or at least watching me. So my doing the right thing, even at immediate detriment to oneself, was never a mistake in the eyes of the Lord. 

I suppose its all paid off in so far as I'm not racked with guilt over anything. At night I think of God and Jesus a lot. I am attempting this examen. 

Speaking to my Mr Spangle who is much better now, he tells me we are Contemplatives in Action. I thought he said Contemplative Sin Action at first. Silly me. 

I looked it up and read a book about it. All Jesuit stuff. I'm glad of that pocket of faith. The flavour of Spirituality as they called it, when I had my first online retreat. 

Seems so long ago now. I guess it was. Hopefully I'll have one in real life. 

There's not much that I tend to ask God for, nor does the promise of eternal life really tempt me. But I know to keep and have space in my life for God and for Jesus. I think of Jesus so much more now. His pain, the suffering, the injustice. 

And also, when he is coming back. 

We need you Jesus. we do. 

Ok yes you died to save us from our sins and thank you and I don't mean to be flippant about that but lets look at this another way. 

You're coming back, so I hear, I hear there were about 400 years between the Old and New Testament, the prophets thought you were coming back in there lifetime, you didn't but you did come back, were killed and rose again (on the third day in accordance with the scripture ;-)

BUT 

This time, I don't think you'll be killed. No way. I think you'll be filmed and believed and everyone will hear of you and listen to your instruction. I think you really are going to save the world. 

When there was the whole Rosetta Stone thing and different languages to split us all up, God was stopping us from communicating, we know there were different tribes, maybe there were even different people before Adam and Eve, like there were before Jesus. 

As a human race look how far we have come in communication, in the past even fifty years, much of it is free and available. I once heard, throughout my time in the Jehovah's Witnesses that the end of the world would come when the good news had been preached in all the inhabited kingdom. That's why the knock on doors, to spread the word.

I think when you come back, the word will spread faster than ever, across the whole world. Maybe this is what God was waiting for, so we can all bear witness to Jesus, on our own tablets of phone. I don't think anyone will hurt you. Not like before. 

Perhaps you had to die, so you could come back, and be the story that you are. So we know what happened to the son of our precious God, our creator, the man who made everything. They killed your son that you sent down, the bastards. I'm so sorry. 

But I know you still love us, and made us be able to procreate so we can invent things and develop, I hope you are looking down on the progress of humanity and are impressed with our travel and communication. You will know we are lost and further away from you but you will see signs of us needing you. 

I hope you feel the love from your believers, from all of us, no matter what our Christianity, there are so many people that daren't admit they know you. No one flies a flag for shy Christians, I guess we did have the little fish on cars when I was little but still. They fly flags for gay sin. There is a lot wrong with today's world but when Jesus comes back, I hope he sees its improved and everyone will follow him. 

We will all be followers of Jesus and only then will it be clear that 'he died to save us from our sins' means that we remember his death and delight in his return, whilst all the churches still stand and we have seen what I can only call the dissolution of Christianity happen in our lifetime, before our very eyes. 

You are actually saving us from the sins to come. I know you will come when the time is right, it does seem near and you will save us all and we will all love you and God will see aren't bad people, just lost but there will be so much excitement and so much News and it will be everywhere and everyone will want to see you and for you to visit us and nothing else will matter.

Everyone will be at peace and prayer and every knee shall bow and you'll have saved us all from our sins. 

That will be a heaven in itself. I hope I'm here to see it. I invite you into my heart every day. I love you. So many people love you. If only I could show you more. I know you know because God knows everything. 

Come home, maybe here, maybe Rome, come back to Earth, we have so much to put right and I know it sounds so selfish, but I would love to see you and even now can see you in my mind's eye so clearly with your arms outstretched. 

Mine are to you also, you are with me and bring such peace to my soul when alone, so uplifting to write about you. Closest always in my thoughts. 

Come down to us Jesus, we ask all sorts in prayer and chance but do we ever ask you back? I'm not sure we do. We remember your death, and your resurrection, but do we invite you back to Earth? 

Maybe we do and maybe I've just continually missed that bit but perhaps now is the time to change the message. 

You are loved, you are needed and we want you. Also, we will save you from our sins, I'm sure of it. So come on down to this beautiful Earth of your Father's. Come and see how we are doing and I think you will be pleasantly surprised. 

We talk of time, the moment you came to Earth is when time truly began and when you return, is when time will truly end. It's been 2023 years, a lot has changed. God is watching and I long for the moment he has faith in us to return you back to Earth, knowing you will be safe.

Come to England, we need you, we love you and we believe in you. In Jesus' name.

Amen